Saturday, Oct. 15, 2005 In reference to: http://theunitedamerican.blogs.com/Movies/2000A/2000.html hi eric- i want to keep this brief, and off the top of my head. thanks for the link to the mind-fuck-of-a-video on "soldiers dead" or "souls lost."   i kept my eyeballs open real wide and let the people's faces blast over them, and i swear within seconds it started to feel like the people's soul were travelling through me, one coming in my head and passing right out the back as another enters.  it was too much.  tears streamed.  I felt  pain and loss.  my son is crawling under my feet, i expend so much of my energy, suckling him to life, and then i see this loss, sacrafice...it kills me, i lose part of my life in giving life and it breaks my heart that the life is wasted.  i feel cheated then, slapped in the face, suked dry, used. bastards. so thank you too for the channeler's message.  i'm feeling the gravity of the loss and confusion. pakistan "decides" to end search and rescue.  what? did you see how big those children's eyes are? so big and brown, still looking for something, and the parent's are desperate cause they know it's a ALL a matter of time.  governments can never be no ones parents.  put that back in the hands of the people. and thank you for printing on cainer the woman's buddah dream.  it made me recall the dream i had this week...looking into blackness and seeing a thin silver thread and someone told me "it's the piece that runs through all of us."  yea, i feel love and reilef looking at that. thanks for the writing and sharing other people with me.  it really helps me feel connected to others, helps me know others care and love too. peace. K.